Oh dear!

On Saturday night I fell out with Sonia. She's been feeling down for a while and invited her along with me and Lynsey to cheer her up. This was the first time I'd been out with Lynsey without the men for over a year and it was lovely to talk frankly about things. Halfway through the night, Sonia stormed off home saying I was well out of order! which was somewhat surprising because it seemed we were all having a good chat and a laugh. I appreciated that she'd been feeling low and decided to try not to let it ruin the rest of the night and decided to call her in the morning and straighten things out. About an hour later, I'de just started to relax again and enjoy the night and I got a text mesage from Sonia which I took to be an apology - but it wasn't - it was saying that I'd pissed her off and was out of order but to say sorry to Lynsey and I was FUMING!
1) I'd done NOTHING wrong
2) She nearly ruined the night when she stormed off
3) She nearly ruined the night a SECOND time when she sent the text
4) She apologised to Lynsey, but not to ME!!!!!!

I'm still not sure why I got so angry but I was spitting! And it lasted until today. Because I was so angry, I didn't phone her Sunday because I knew I'd say something I'd regret. On Monday I got this email

How was WeightWatchers? have found some snackajacks toffee popcorn for 2pts
perbag- but toffeee is v v sticky and not sure if they sell it at Tesco
or not.

Hope we're cool after weekend- was surprised you didn't text to say
ok after I'd said lets not bother discussing it. If we're not ok best contact me
when you're not feeling huffy about itall as I said dont have energy to
discuss it/fall out with you:)

Unfortunatley we will have to discuss before Ls hen weekend as I really cant go if its going to be like that...but let's talk about it later.x

And this email annoyed me even more because she obviously thought there'd been nothing wrong with her behaviour.

I replied to the email saying I WAS "huffy" and explained why and a few emails went back & forth but she did apologise. The thing was that I felt I couldn't forgive her and didn't know why, although I suspected that it was a culmination of things.

I posted a message on a website I go on (Hello to everyone reading this who knows me from there!) and I got some very helpful replies and food for thought. I think I'll try and back off from the friendship ever so slightly so she relies on me a bit less.

Today I'm feeling less annoyed so have sent her a chatty email - I'll let you know how it goes.

Sarah
xx

PS I'm giving up on the house we're buying - the woman is a nutter and is refusing to go into the solicitors to sign the transfer deed so that we can exchange.
PPS Race for Life on Sunday! Woo hoo!