Haunted by the Dreaded Maternity Nightshirt.....

When I started ebaying earlier on this year, I decided that the time was right to sell 2 items which were bought for me while I was pregnant.

Being superstitious and a pessimist, I asked people not to buy me anything until after 12 weeks, but a woman from Pat’s work felt she had to buy me a pregnancy week by week book. And my mum bought me a maternity nightshirt - she couldn’t help herself - she was SO excited.

Those 2 items have haunted me ever since and for the first year or so after losing the baby, I kept torturing myself by looking at them. Ever since, I have kept them because I thought that "soon" they would be needed again.

This year, I decided that I would hold on to them no longer which was a revelation about how I felt about my infertility and advertised them on ebay. The book sold straight away but the nightshirt didn’t.

Normally, if an item doesn’t sell, I forget it, because it costs money to advertise them, whether they are sold or not. But I felt that the night-shirt NEEDED to be gone! So I re-advertised it at 1p and I sold it to a lady in America. (charged her 5.99 postage when it only cost me £3, so made a small profit, there).

I cannot tell you how relieved I felt when I posted that parcel - it was symbolic to me - I was finally casting away the infertility baggage that I’d carried around for 4 years since losing my baby and it felt good. I was free ….. or so I thought ……………..

Last week, I went to the post office to collect my latest ebay purchase and guess what they also had for me? That friggin parcel that had been returned to sender and had taken over 2 months to come back to me!!!!! Nightmare!

And to make it worse, when I contacted the buyer, she said she’d moved, had forgotten that she’d bought the nightshirt and didn’t want it.

So I’m stuck with it - again!

So, do I
1) Re-advertise it on ebay
2) Burn it - as a symbol of the grief I have experienced
3) Throw it away

I will do whatever you think - leave your suggestions in the comments or alternatively - email me

OR - even better - if YOU want it (or you know someone who does) - you can have it FREE - I’ll even pay the postage - just let me know.

Here it is in all it's glory .....

Sarah
xx