Feeling Positively hypnotised !

Apparently, according to Paul McKenna, I can change my life in 7 days. It all started with Sonia who has become a completely different person and is energetic, positive and a joy to be around. She feels so much better that she bought me the book which I am working through. The book also comes with a cd which you are meant to listen to twice a day (note "meant" as haven’t actually managed twice a day yet!) There are lots of different subliminal messages going into both ears at the same time - v weird! Paul wants me to start looking at my life differently and change things which are in my power to change. The problem is that the two things that are causing me stress at the moment are out of my power - infertility and the house buying. :o(

There is only a certain amount I can do with the house buying and I‘m doing it - chasing estate agents, solicitors, banks, etc., otherwise it’s just a matter of suck it & see.

The infertility is a bigger problem ….. I still have those 3 embryos waiting for me and I am going to sort them out this year - definitely. But my plan now, if that doesn’t work, is to become a parent through surrogacy. I’m not sure whether it’s something I want to do, (and I’m not sure whether Pat is particularly keen, either) so I’ve been having a look at some websites, but for someone at such an early stage in the process (ie - undecided) there wasn’t much info. So, I’ve decided to read up on the subject and then see if I am in a position to make a more informed decision. I have bid for a book on ebay about a woman’s struggle to have a child and will go from there…. I just wish someone could tell me what the best thing to do is …….

Sarah
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PS Pat’s parents arrive on Sunday! 5 days time !!!!!

Updates

I saw Sonia at the weekend for the first time since our "disagreement" in June and we had a really good time. And the reason for that is that she has finally pulled herself together. Apparently she hit rock bottom during July while I was in a whirlwind about Pat and she decided that she could either sort herself out or resign herself to wasting her life by being miserable all the time. (luckily she went for the first option) She also bought herself a self-help book/dvd which really explores your psyche and hypnotises you. She is the best I’ve seen her for about 2 years and am so impressed, I have ordered the book as well because I could do with some help dealing with my "lot" in life. Will let you know how it goes :o)

I also saw my brother at the weekend. He is back from Malaysia and seems really happy now that he’s a married man. Naturally I have my concerns over his marriage (her not coming back this time is not insignificant me thinks..) but he’s happy and long may it last I say.

Things have settled down at work. The girls have been put straight (in a nice way of course) about the fact that I am the boss. The nurse had her appraisal today and she is in no doubt what is expected of her so hopefully things are now sorted.

I am glad that I decided not to go to Lynsey’s hen weekend. I cancelled because of the cost and also because it’s in Amsterdam - definitely NOT my scene! But she’s going tomorrow! And anyone who’s seen the news today will know that at the moment all flights out of Luton airport are cancelled. I hope they resume before tomorrow or she’s gonna have a crap weekend!

Sarah
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Only 17 days until Pat’s parents arrive!! Aaaarrrrgggghhh!!!!!!